Something unexpected

I was diagnosed of several eye diseases this year in January including optic nerve atrophy, cataract and others. I can't say that my diseases changed me in a good way but it did contribute to shaping who I am today. I used to be healthy and hadn't experienced much frustrations or setbacks. I took everything for granted and I was lucky. Because I came from a good family with parents who love me and money wasn't a problem.My parents always took care of everything. But after I was diagnosed I started to think more negatively on things and I really thought of suicide because the unfortunate events seem to come all at once and I was overwhelmed by them. I couldn't understand why it had to be me who got the diseases, I couldn't even see the board and how am I going to survive in college if I couldn't even see the board?
But there're still other alternatives; attitude matters so I decided to change the way I look at things. If I were to be sick, I'll face it and fight it. I can only rely on myself and although the western doctors had gave up already because there's no cure for my disease, I'll just have to keep changing Chinese doctors and hope for the best. I don't care if I can't see the board I'm still going to apply to colleges and live my life like before. This event is really something unexpected that changed my life because there're many other "tagging along sicknesses" that go with it, I didn't like surgeries but there was not much I can do so I'll have to learn to live with it and think positively. This made me realize how health is the primary thing and I'm still finding a balance between exercising, going to the doctors' checkups, and school work. The other thing is I think that psychological effects afffects my diseases so I'll have to think positively and keep telling myself about how everything's going to get better. I'm still tryinggg.